I fear your grandma was right about the loop
‘no soy ni de aquí, ni de allá’ this expression has been the bane of most 1st generation kids living in the US. feeing shame or guilt of not feeling accepted nor welcomed in either side of the border.
proud michigander,
when i die, bury me under the summer michigan sun in an open field surrounded by lillies.
soy de aquí, y de allá.